So tired.

     Had a great day today fitting in to this new schedule. I’m amazed at how I am handling all of this. I am now a business owner of Nogales Event Center in San Benito, currently working at Geek Squad, have a girlfriend, responsibilities at church, my family to assess, and school to progress. So much to juggle… but I know I can handle it. 

..but…

this post is something different. It’s been a while since I’ve posted something out of my own thoughts; specially venting. I, feel frustrated and sad by little comments that just bring you down completely if said in the correct tone and coming out of the mouth of a certain individual. These words that resonate in your heart and fill you up with instant-frustration. Especially now, I know I have so many things to put into place, you, being one of the few high priorities… yet you still keep on spitting these comments… sigh. Why, won’t you understand, that I understand how you feel and that all I want you to do is bear with me a bit until everything settles down. :/ I’m just so down now…

     Second. When I analyze my own introspection, I realize I have such amazing emotions for you; something I know that is real and special. So, when I try to show you these emotions I try to make everything as special as I can make it. From the smallest things, like surprising you with flowers or actions to my attempt at showing my affection towards you. These emotions, can sometimes take the best out of me. That previous statement is engraved in my soul thanks to you…

     So, where am I going with this? Well… today I just didn’t know how to react after what I asked you to do. I have a reason for everything I ask you to do. I can’t let anything get in the way of us; I look after us. All this frustrates me, and maybe its the fact that you pulled another one of your comments, honestly, I don’t even know anymore…

I don’t know how else to put it to you when it comes to this. I understand you, but yet I feel like you don’t understand me and it breaks me apart…like today. I’m so sad I have to vent, and I’m so sad I have to go through this day again like this.